under the same sky

All Under Heaven: Love and Hope

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back, soften and purify the heart. - Washington Irving

Funny how in your darkest hours, you’ll hang on to anything you think will help save you from feeling the despair you’re feeling at the moment

There are days that I carry  this feeling of emptiness inside of me; an emptiness that weighs heavy in my heart… and heavy on my body..and today is not an exception.

I was caught off guard once again. I am on my way home. Passing along the dark, long road while the moon dimmed it’s light above me. Cold winds covered my face while my hair was freely blown by its caressing wind. On the face of it, you might believe I was afraid walking into that dark road, neither had I have an eerie feeling, But tonight, just for tonight I had a sad thought that I was walking all alone. Again.

I’ve been feeling pretty down in the dumps lately. Adding to that, for some unknown reasons, I cannot fathom exactly where this is coming from. I had always present myself in my most jovial state, and whenever I walk home alone, I take advantage of the moment to recall best memories, to dream my big dreams, and to feel the love I am always capable of giving.

But at that moment, on that road, it took me great effort and hardly moved my feet as I continued walking. I could have run instead, but I didn’t. And just let myself feel the emotion until finally it dawned upon me.

It is all fun and games until someone gets hurt. Whether your intentions where good at first, someone still suffers. Almost doesn’t count; and yes, I am committed to something I can’t call my own. That little nagging feeling that he never cared as much as you did. The pain of wanting someone who doesn’t feel the same way can be excruciating. It can make you feel like the world has slipped out from under your feet. A distorted idea of what love is supposed to be like; one sided —the exact feeling I had at this moment.

At some point in life, we’ve all experienced  the pain poets and songwriters have written for ages.  More often than not, its when we know we have so much love to give, yet it seems that nobody wants it. Nothing can be more excruciating than that. It’s the emotional investment that we know from the start never existed. Yet, we endured it.  what’s more amazing is that no matter how broken we are, we can still love them with all the little pieces that’s left.

“There is always a ring that fits my finger” as if someone whispered to me from a distance. I smiled. I looked up, and came to my own realization that:

If the one you love doesn’t want you, this is your wake-up call. -Don’t waste time, effort and energy. Change your focus. Give yourself time to get over this and learn from it. Change your attention to what you love to do.

Dig deep. And if someone tells you they aren’t ready for love—believe them. Our egos can get in the way of hearing what is said and what is not said..

Ask. If he would love you, would you be happy for the rest of your life? If you are longing for someone who seems to have more going for them than you do, perhaps you should need to look at what you should be doing more interesting.  and better things. When you feel all these one-sided feeling, but are too afraid to tell them because you are scared they might not care, the truth is, they probably wont.

Ask. Find the answer. Accept it.

Absorb the pain. This is the hardest part. to let yourself hurt and let the pain take its toll on you, until you come out stronger and better person far more than you thought of.

When the one you want doesn’t love you, the work you have to do is immediate and clear. It is time to put loving attention on your life. You can do it and you deserve it.

At times of despair, we need to see with a new eyes, with new hope.

There is always a choice.

Look closer beyond the darkness and discover that each moment is precious.  Beyond the tangible, a sense of love  and happiness reside.

My Lesson:

If anyone ever falls in love with you and feels this strongly. Don’t shrug it off like it is nothing, I’m not asking you to love them back, I’m just asking you to care., for I know how it feels to be left alone.

And if it is you who fall in love with someone strongly as this and don’t love you the same way, hold on to the last bit of sanity you have Do not let it completely ruin who you are. You are a wonderful person and you can pull through.

You will have some rough times. But it will get better.

I hope. At least, that’s what I’ve been told.

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Happy New You : An Attitude of Gratitude

“We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures.” –Thornton Wilder

Just as the whole world sleeps soundly at this hour, I lie awake smiling. Days after I bid formal goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012 with high hope and optimism, I cannot help but recall with grateful heart the things that happened to me. Whether be it in my career as an architect, as a daughter, a friend, or just by being someone who knows how to appreciate even the simplest things and small act of random kindness that goes a long, long way; knowing that these things are what gives life its real meaning.

To best appreciate what life hands us, it’s always good to count our blessings. I, for one, being a lover of words who loves to jot down notes, I keep a handy journal with me..a sort of gratitude journal where I keep track of my everyday blessings and miracles. I see to it that I never fail to enlist even the smallest deeds extended to me, be it coming from a total stranger.

At night, before I go to bed, I scroll back on this notes, and sometimes despite feeling so heavy after a long day’s work, reading these notes relaxes me and reading over again through these notes is one of the best way to lull me to sleep.

A simple text, a surprised 5-minute call, a sticky notes, a bear hug, a surprise kiss or just a plain smiley icon on a scratch paper makes my hectic day bearable. Especially when this things comes from people so dear to me. I remember a time, while I was on site, tired, feeling utterly worthless, all things got piled up after another, it’s as if I feel like walking away just because things don’t go as scheduled, a good friend texted me: ” Mons, di ka ba pupunta dito sa office?” and I somehow irritatedly replied: ” Bakit?!” a friend answered: ” wala, gusto ko kasi tumawa e..kita mo yan katext pa lang kita natatawa na ako..” — and that message simply fade away all the bad vibes I had.

There is no better way to appreciate someone if we can say “Thank you” in person. We say praises in private and critic in public, when we can do the other way around. We do say thank you in private, but we must do it more often in public. There’s no better way to make someone feel appreciated than to say “thank you” publicly.

THANK YOU. Spell it in full. Sometimes, we get so busy that we tend to shortcut just a plain word into a single letter, from OKAY to K, THANKS to tnx, LOVE to luv. PLEASE to pls.  Am I not worth the one extra second it would have taken to spell these words in full? Remember, wrong spelling wrong, and if you look at it in a dictionary, that has no meaning. So next time, at least find time to complete these simple words,not just out of courtesy, but because you want to give it’s receiver an idea how they are worthy even the millisecond of your time.

Let’s make the world we live in a happier place—one day at a time, one “thank you” at a time.